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Piss in Holy Water
03:18
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And I'm lost without you here with me
Cause I have lost just about everything
And my skin breaks and starts to bleed
I'm weak and I haven't got the urge to eat
There's something off about my brain
The way I act, and feel, and think
So here's what I've brought next to me
A shovel and a gun now put me to sleep
I've have gotten worse since we last spoke
I think about my past and begin to choke
I've done so much wrong to my family
Can't understand why they put up with me
So if I die here where would I go
Anywhere but here I hope
Jesus son the father piss in holy water
Jesus son the father the room is gettin hotter
Jesus son the father piss in holy water
Jesus son the father kill me like your daughter
I've have gotten worse since we last spoke
I think about my past and begin to choke
I've done so much wrong to my family
Can't understand why they put up with me
So if I die here where would I go
Anywhere but here I hope
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I always knew I'd be back here
Cause I have some much to say
I don't know how to handle shit
That I deal with every single day
But I've got a lot of problems
And I've got too many thoughts
So I'll scream them to the void
Just in case you forgot
I hope you turn this shit off
go find something better
If my brain isn't enough
Then I'll pull the trigger
I can't pull this shit off
So I'll put on a sweater
If I could just die right now
I'd feel as light as a feather
Im still not happy No matter how shit goes
I have all I want But still my hearts broke
Sleep is an issue and so is my drinking
So I drink like I'm drowning
And shut off when I'm thinking
I hope you turn this shit off
go find something better
If my brain isn't enough
Then I'll pull the trigger
I can't pull this shit off
So I'll put on a sweater
If I could just die right now
I'd feel as light as a feather
If this shits all I've got
I guess that's a bummer
There's a hole in my sock
And I fucking hate summer
Why does it have to be so hot
I really miss the winter
I could freeze my whole heart
Just watch it get colder
I hope you turn this shit off
go find something better
If my brain isn't enough
Then I'll pull the trigger
I can't pull this shit off
So I'll put on a sweater
If I coud just die right now
I'd feel as light as a feather
I hope you turn this shit off
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Alcohol
03:15
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Another day later an i'm all alone
Holding back the urge to dial up your phone
When you don't answer, drink some alcohol
Ya this shits gonna be my down fall
I can't be myself now that you're gone
Trying to fix my life but it's all wrong
I'm trying but I'm failing
I'm drinking but its helping
I'm drowning and I'm sinking
I'm loosing and I'm dyin
Another day later an i'm all alone
Holding back the urge to dial up your phone
When you don't answer, drink some alcohol
Ya this shits gonna be my down fall x2
I shouldn't have let you into my heart
It was so hard you were a work of art
I'm losing all my energy to forget you
I just wish I knew if you felt this too
Another day later an i'm all alone
Holding back the urge to dial up your phone
When you don't answer, drink some alcohol
Ya this shits gonna be my down fall x2
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When will enough be enough,
In our last moments we'll regret all we done,
All the pollution an damage done to the sun,
Acting like we have another world but this is our only one, you'll pray to your god and ask him why it sux, but he'll say it was you, but you were too worried about who other people fuck
I can't help but say these words out loud,
You can only hold so much in before it comes out, its breaking my heart so instead I'll shout, maybe now you'll figure it out, I dont need a reason to take my life right now
So When will you see that you're privileged,
Worrying about a vote like it makes a difference, they'll say anything to fool you to be their audience, we dont even share their same interests, I just wish you'd stand up and resist this, you're too afraid and they're making richest, while we're to poor to afford a therapist
I can't help but say these words out loud,
You can only hold so much in before it comes out, its breaking my heart so instead I'll shout, maybe now you'll figure it out, I dont need a reason to take my life right now
I'm breaking down and I'm loosing my patience,I cant handle this my only thought is violence, you might think that's wrong but so is your silence, I wont sit back and watch you ruin my existence, at this point its over I'm through with your ignorance
I can't help but say these words out loud,
You can only hold so much in before it comes out, its breaking my heart so instead I'll shout, maybe now you'll figure it out, I dont need a reason to take my life right now
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Happy Birthday Song
03:17
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I'm back to hitting snooze again
I haven't heard from my friends
I'm alone in this bed
Should I stop while I'm ahead
Have I done something right
Is this another lonely night
I remember what you said
I still wish that I was dead once a day
I just want to love myself
I don't want this mental health
I know I need some help
But that's not coming easy
I don't want to grind my teeth
I just want to get some sleep
I just want to grab a drink
But no one will come with me
I'm always thinking about the ending
Here we go with my thoughts
I know I look distraught
I have these bags under my eyes
They carry all my tears and lies
I can't believe this is where I at
This is life this is what you get
I feel like I was born to loose
Now I'm carrying a noose around my head
I just want to love myself
I don't want this mental health
I know I need some help
But that's not coming easy
I don't want to grind my teeth
I just want to get some sleep
I just want to grab a drink
But no one will come with me
I'm always thinking about the ending
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Super Hero
04:03
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Spending another night here at my home
Wasting it away staying glued to my phone
Watchin the same damn shows over again
Going from screen 2 screen & masterbation
I already cleaned my apartment last week
The future just makes my stomach weak
Its fine I'll just stay here drunk tonight
Until my eyes start fuckin up & loosin sight
Haven't made my bed in nearly months
And I fall asleep before basically everyone
At least when I sleep I can't make mistakes
No I'm not feeling down life's fucking great
Another day and I feel like an idiot
Another night and I'm ready to end it
This isn't a cry for help is just the way I cope
I'm usually laughing cause I'm such a joke
You'll see me smiling its probably my mask
A super hero with a disagreeable task
So I'll hide my identity from all around me
With all these feels but still feeling empty
Its a Friday night so I might go out for once
I do it so I can have some type of nuance
I don't want anyone to worry about me
I don't feel this way so it can effect you too
A lot of the time I do this all to myself
I built these walls and created my own hell
Another day and I feel like an idiot
Another night and I'm ready to end it
This isn't a cry for help is just the way I cope
I'm usually laughing cause I'm such a joke
You'll see me smiling its probably my mask
A super hero with a disagreeable task
So I'll hide my identity from all around me
With all these feeling but still feeling empty
So why am I built like a sand castle
I'm only supposed to be here a little while
One major wave and I'm fucking done for
Thats alright I dont want to be here anymore
Another day and I feel like an idiot
Another night and I'm ready to end it
This isn't a cry for help is just the way I cope
I'm usually laughing cause I'm such a joke
You'll see me smiling its probably my mask
A super hero with a disagreeable task
You want to know how I'm doing don't ask
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I feel awful today, I feel just at a loss. I feel like I really have no one. Like I really have nothing. I feel that I'm just a burden to everyone around me. That I'm nothing more than someone my family and friends just put up with because they are to afraid to tell me the truth because they're afraid of what I might do. I feel like my mental illness isn't going to get any better, and it just brings me down. I feel no matter how much I achieve, I will still be held back by it. And it will always make me feel like shit. And keep me from my full potential. I feel like my ideas, all of them, are only good idea to me. And everyone doesn't like them, doesn't want them, doesn't care. Today sucks, and I hate days like this. I hate life. I'm not happy. And I'm fucking really good at pretending I am. I'm so fucking good and making sure everyone around me "knows" I'm ok. But the reality is the exact opposite. I hate everything about where I am because I can't even enjoy the parts that are good anymore. Because everything else in my life attacks me so brutally. I hate to put all his on you, cause you can't do anything to change it, and as much as that terrifies you, it terrifies me. Cause even the people I love can't fix it. And it means I can't escape it. I hate myself. I can't be myself, because I don't even like who I am. This isn't fair to you, but I have no one else to say this to. Other people can't handle it, some really don't care. And others I've exhausted them with how I am
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8. |
Paint These Walls
02:47
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No you wont get a rise outta me
I wont play your games
You know you were my honey
The last thing you said to me
It wasn't the right time
Now I want to OD
By now you were looking at me
With those eyes
I could swear kill me
I might have left your room
but you left me
Down the road of insanity
Hold me, hold me
Hold me close as I count to three
Here we go with a gun to my teeth
Watch ne close you don't want to miss me
I'm gonna paint these walls that you built for me x2
I'm a mess
I'm a wreck
Watch you dress
Kisses on your neck
Hold me close as I count to three
Here we go with a gun to my teeth
Watch ne close you don't want to miss me
I'm gonna paint these walls that you built for me x2
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Time the Linear
03:24
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today I got an invitation to your wedding
Reminded of a part of life Ive been dreading
Now I have to face the way that I'm heading
Holding onto parts of it hangin on by a thread
The numbness is just a feeling of comfort
I know I've still put forth so much effort
I can't make myself feel better when I hurt
So let's just make time fly by with substance
I've always been afraid of getting older
With each year the world's getting colder
Is it just me or has time just slipped past me
We always thought age would set us free
But now tired and sad and thats how I stay
Seeing less of the kid I once was everyday
Now I'm staring at the ceiling
and everything is gone
My memories are a blur
And I feel just like my mom
Can't get back the better days
Even though they were still wrong
I grew up with abuse
And now put memories I'm a song
I made it to twenty five
I hope you are still glad
I spend my days and nights
Constantly feeling sad
My mental illness isn't mine
I get it from my dad
Constantly wondering
If I'm just going fuckin mad
I've always been afraid if getting older
With each year the world's getting colder
Is it just me or has time just slipped past me
We always thought age would set us free
But now tired and sad and thats how I stay
Seeing less of the kid I once was everyday
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10. |
Omaha Street
04:35
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As empty as the other half of my bed
As dark outside as the thoughts in my head
I lay here without you for the 100th night
Hard to admit the times I wasn't right
Pitiful and lonely like the kid I once was
As irresponsible as the God that left us
And I finally know that I was ruined
From the start
And you taught me it was ok to fall apart
My life was different from the other kids
Always wondering why mine looked like this
Church wasn't enough to change my mind
Rub my eyes with mud until I am blind
I don't want to see this shit all the time
They way you love is a hate crime
Looking around other people loving life
Its obvious that I just hated mine
And I finally know that I was ruined
From the start
And you taught me it was ok to fall apart
My life was different from the other kids
Always wondering why mine looked like this
And I'm not sober until my life is over
And I'm getting older weight on my shoulders
And I'm getting colder I just want to hold her
And I'm fucking up over and over
And I finally know that I was ruined
From the start
And you taught me it was ok to fall apart
My life was different from the other kids
Always wondering why mine looked like this
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